I started watching a movie and the next thing I knew I was dreaming of Kandiance, Pam, Jenny, and Virginia. They were dancing and laughing. They were surrounded by 17 beautiful children…many who took their last breaths in my arms. I remember their little Haitian faces so vividly.

I hadn’t thought about some of them in a long time but their smiling faces and healed bodies brought me to tears even in my sleep. Little Josue was finally walking, Charlie was playing ball, Minoushka was playing patty-cake, Nikea was singing, Mica was hiding behind Janide, Lovedi was crawling, and Meray was no longer swollen from wet malnutrition. I had a total peace come over me and woke up only when Malaya asked me why I was crying. They were sweet, happy tears.

This song kept playing through my head as I thought about them…

When I get where I’m going
on the far side of the sky.
The first thing that I’m gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly.

I’m gonna land beside a lion,
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it’s like
To ride a drop of rain

Chorus
Yeah when I get where I’m going,
there’ll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I’ll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I’m going,
Don’t cry for me down here.

I’m gonna walk with my grandaddy,
and he’ll match me step for step,
and I’ll tell him how I missed him,
every minute since he left.
Then I’ll hug his neck.

(Chorus)

So much pain and so much darkness,
in this world we stumble through.
All these questions, I can’t answer,
so much work to do.

But when I get where I’m going,
and I see my Maker’s face.
I’ll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.
Yeah when I get where I’m going,
there’ll be only happy tears.
Hallelujah!
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I’m going.

Yeah when I get where I’m going….