Those were the first thoughts I had yesterday afternoon as I looked into the mirror…..bags under my red eyes, most of my hair no longer in a ponytail, skin is dry, and still in my PJ’s. I wrote a poem a few days ago  – My Walk With God. I had been neglecting Him for several days because of all the things I had to do – mostly just taking care of the kids. I felt convicted to write it and I seem to learn better myself just by writing things out (even if it doesn’t rhyme perfectly!)

Just as I had been neglecting God….I apparently have been neglecting myself. Probably a good thing Jose isn’t around his Bridezilla right now – – although seeing me 35 weeks pregnant couldn’t have blessed him either!! Let’s face it – it didn’t bless ANYONE! 🙂

The twins were born the day Michael Jackson died. There was so much coverage on it and much like the rest of America – we were consumed by it ourselves –  especially being in the hospital with nothing else to do. What an odd fellow he was and what a tragic life he lived. Watching all the TV specials about his life and how he grew up…I really felt sorry for him. WAIT – Not the point. The point is all his songs kept playing as every channel had  something about him. No joke – as I’m standing looking in the mirror at this mess in front of me  – his song “Man in the Mirror” popped into my head.

I’m starting with the man in the mirror
I’m asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change

Is Michael Jackson teaching me something? Are you serious?

I’m looking at this WOMAN IN THE MIRROR…and on almost every level you can think of…it’s time for a change!