I’m laying in bed and watching the clock,
I’m wondering if this pain is ever going to stop.
My head is pounding and I feel so sick as I lay,
Tears and frustration are how I begin each day.
Regardless of the reasons of why I black out,
It can be scary and frustrating to not be up and about.
It’s not just a song – God’s still working on me,
But how long does it take – I want to be done already.
He’s forcing me to rely on him each and every day,
And I don’t really like it when I don’t get my way.
I know it’s His desire to fill my heart with pure joy,
But it’s not going to be easy if he keeps giving me all boys! 🙂
I really want to pout and cry – woe is me,
But there are so many blessings – why can’t I just see?
Now with 7 little kids – I’ve been blessed in abundance,
And I’ll never find anyone who could be a better husband.
I’m surrounded with people that I know love me and care,
I get notes of encouragement and am lifted up in prayer.
So I want to thank all of you for your outpouring of love,
It keeps me focused off myself – and on things from above.
This is what happens when I can’t fall asleep –
I start writing poems – better that then to weep!
SO – I don’t want to hear if this poem doesn’t really rhyme,
It’s 3 in the morning – the sun hasn’t even started to shine!
Now I’ll start working on one of my famous Top 10 Lists –
Just pray you’re not on it – or you’re going to get dissed!! 🙂