So I’ve been having trouble sleeping at night. My new thing has been to watch HGTV late at night OR CMT (Country Music Television). 

So last night I was watching CMT and I heard this song which it’s not a new song but I hadn’t heard it in a while. It’s called God’s Will by Martina McBride. 

GOD’S WILL

I met God’s Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
It hid the braces on his legs at first

His smile was as bright as the August sun
When he looked at me
As he struggled down the driveway, it almost
Made me hurt

Will don’t walk too good
Will don’t talk too good
He won’t do the things that the other kids do,
In our neighborhood

[Chorus:]
I’ve been searchin’, wonderin’, thinkin’
Lost and lookin’ all my life
I’ve been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I’ve wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother’s miracle
I’ve been readin’, writin’, prayin’, fightin’
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God’s Will

Will’s mom had to work two jobs
We’d watch him when she had to work late
And we’d all laugh like I hadn’t laughed
Since I don’t know when

Hey Jude was his favorite song
At dinner he’d ask to pray
And then he’d pray for everybody in the world but him

[Chorus]

Before they moved to California
His mother said, they didn’t think he’d live
And she said each day that I have him, well it’s just
another gift
And I never got to tell her, that the boy
Showed me the truth
In crayon red, on notebook paper, he’d written
Me and God love you
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MAKES ME REALLY MISS MY LITTLE GIGI! Gigi has taught so many people what true love is. Just two years old and 7lbs –  she was our first little baby.  I remember the Americans telling us that she wouldn’t make it and we shouldn’t become so invested in her. I remember the Haitians kept asking  – – Why we would take a “broken” baby? How could an American who could have anything/everything –  want a little child like that? 

Gigi has done more for my family than we could ever do for her. I cannot wait until I get to see her again. Jose hopes to go get her in March. There is definitely a hole here – it won’t be filled until we have our little girl walking around – throwing all the toys (and anything else that’s sitting in front of her)  to the ground – and giggling at her hand!